okay many things are happening around me around everyone
things are like spinning too fast for me
but all i know is im here for everyone or anyone if they need me
:D so cheer up yah!

i feel like such a bad friend and everything
i dont know whats happening in everyones life
isit me not putting enough effort to try and get along
or am i just doing too much until people want me out of their lives
if so im sorry.
i just want to be a friend. its that simple.

anyway im gonna study from now on
ive already started today
to me doing 5 amaths questions by myself is already an effort
i dont want to be looked down again
i wanna score and let my mummy see
all i can see from her now is disappointment
seeing it from her hurts me more then anything
but looking back at how many times she nagged and all
i deserve it
i dont know why i always have to make things so difficult then i'll start thinking for myself
weird huh?

anyway im off to being my usual not studying self again
im gonna only study behind my mummys back
i wanna surprise her with my results:D
itis a weird surprise?

so ciaoz <3