well i know midyears are coming
but i just cant get into the mood of studying
can someone teach me?
okay sorry i forgot you all not free

anyway im addicted to 'Aja! guem soon'
i know i know MIDYEARS!
but i cant help it

anyway im gonna go try study now

ciaoz

midyears are here
but i haven even started studying
okay abit la, really abit
i really dont know alot of stuff
i think i really need to buck up liao

im damn troubled now
for loads of thngs
hope they will just disappear:D

anyway im troubled but not sad

ciaoz

okay i bet everyone's sick of my emo-ing
im sorry. seriously

okay today's paper just sux
i dont know what to write at al
plus i dont know how to write alot of chinese words
dumb right

anyway i have to thank this particular someone for lending me his jacket
even thought is abit too big for me la
but stil thanks it helpped me alot :D

ciao

i SWEAR some guys in our class are just plain mean.

well we got bronze
so much better then i expected
okay maybe not soo much
but its so much better then cop la :D

todays paper was like shit man
no thinking juice was running through my body
felt super dumb

went to tmall with people to get darrens pressie
hope he'll like it
spent damn long looking for it

iz sent me home cause he scared he go home
then over sleep for his akido (sorry my spelling suxs)

tomolo another new day with more exams to come
ciaoz

i feel as invisible as the wind.
no, worst at least people can feel the wind.

im clinging on whatever that i have left but i realise the more i tried to cling onto it the faster it silps away. maybe its time to learn to let go.

im such a horrible person
im far more selfish then you think i am
im far more shameless then you think i am
im far more then what you imagine me to be
i even scare myself sometimes
so dont assume you know who i am cause you dont know how mean i can be

i use to think how wonderful life is without me
but now i wish that it wasnt just a dream, but a reality

the two reasons im alive

one, im afraid of heights
two, i heard that if you jump off the building you have to jump again and again even
after you die

i wish im not so coward.

im so sick of people thinking they know me well
im sick of people thinking that everything i do and everything i say is crap and they just laugh over it.
im sick of people thinking that i only knows how to play and not study
cant you just listen not everything i say is crap

im not as strong as you think
even though i dont drop tears infront of you doesnt mean you didnt hurt me
even though i smile after what things you say doesnt mean i dont take it to heart

and maybe sometimes sorry is just a word to way to make people feel better

maybe james is right on two things
one, sometimes people just need someone to be there. theres no need for words, just sitting there can make a person feel not so lonely anymore

two, one day when all my problems are filled to the brim and i cant hold it any longer, it will burst and theres no way and no one to stop it

okay enuff ranting ciaoz

well dance syf was scary
many people cork up a little here and there including me
it was good overall
at least it touched my teacher so much that she actually cried

anyway i cant believe we took bout 2 hours to do our makeup and everything
plus samlee and jas keep saying i look emo with my makeup
even when i smile it looks emo:\

well okay
im an emo girl:D

pris didnt go to skool today and i left early
i think jimson misses us:]

our results will only come out at thursday
we have to suffer this torture for like 3days:\
and we watched some dance group perform they were great
even some cork up abit:\

and i have to thank iz for sending me home:]
plus i watched cinderella3 already
super nicee but i didnt cry:] not like somebody

ciaoz <3s

went home damn late yesterday luckily james sent us home:D
THANK YOU!
when to his house to study ended up playing cards
okay but i did study ABIT okay :)

because of somethings yuhan got damn disturbed
hope she'll be her not-disturbed self again
skipped dinner! need to lose tons of fats
but unfortunatly i ate a huge breakfast just now
so its like no difference la

think todays gonna be another boring day

mummys going abroad again tomolo!
and thats means she wont be around after sfy and midyear
shit! in a way but YAY! in a way too
im contridicting myself!

anyway should i get the POSB card from her?
abit pai seh leiis

thats random i know

okay ciaoz

syf is in 3days
im soo scared sia
then the teacher today damn busted sia
dowanna talk bout it la

well i just watched tyra banks show
todays the designers episode
ohmygosh i love Rami Kashou and Elsie Katz designs
damn nicee!

tomolo still got practice
dont feel like going la
stupid teacher!

today teacher showed us slides about STDs
damn gross i tell you

anyway todays a bore.
ciaoz

i just felt like crying i dont know why
i miss you
esp when im feeling emo
i'll think of what you did for me and everything
it makes me feel worst knowing what i did to you
i hope we'll become the best of friends

you're the only one ,well until now, that can make me feel better
sometimes i just want a person to be there
just let all my anger fustration out
but the only time i can remember when i feel good after crying
is when im with you :D

well enough with all the emo
todays okay
chems actually easy in a way:\
thanks wanxins mummy for sending us home:D

once i reach home bathe
then came out told my mummy that i wasted 12 bucks on taxi this morning
cause the bloodly bus was late and those that were early were all full!
the my bro was like 'wha i feel so sorry for you sia' in a sarcastic tone
then i was like 'whats your problem'
then my mummy was like 'he's just saying hes feeling sorry'

its like so obvious that he's being sarcastic la
its so unfair
last time i just say 'wha so ke lian hor'
then i'll get scolded by her

its like so unfair to have a younger bro thats retarded in a way or sick in the head
i know he's vv ke lian cause he's born this way but hello im here too you know
liek everytime when we go out its only him him him
its never bout me
i know its damn bad to feel so but i cant help it
no matter im right or wrong im always in the wrong
im human i have feelings too you know

maybe its cause im having my menses now thats why im so emo and having mood swings.
im feeling damn emo now

ciaoz

i suddenly feel so emo-ed now
i suddenly feel like im alone in this world
i feel so burdened with everything around me
i feel like a dummy with no say
i feel like even if i say no ones able to help me
i feel...i dont even know how to express myself properly

what a joke right?
maybe ill feel better as the day goes by

ciaoz

well i8ts been a longg time since i blog
so i've decided to blog for those poor souls out there who doesnt have anything to read:D
okay so after sports day yesterday me and yuhan and iz and ah bo went to james hse
which was super big!
we went swimming and and and yuhan managed to watchthe whole of 'saw 3' without puking
great improvement from the 1st time we watched it
which was like a few days before and that time we only managed to watch like the first 10 mins?

okay so cause of sports day i'm currently sunburnt
like super pain only lo

and i managed to climb out of bed for dance this morning
but im still late la as per normal

gran's now in hospital
maybe we'll go vist her later
she dman poor thing la
so old liao finally on her birthday can celebrate than she got food poisoning, i think(?)

anyway im bored now at home doing nothing.
well lets see some quiz i took

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Your Birthdate: December 17

You tend to find yourself lucky - both in business and in life. And while being wealthy is nice, you enjoy sharing your abundance with others. You put your luck to good use: you are very ambitious and goal oriented. Often times, you get over excited and take on more than you can manage. Your strength: Your ability to make your own luck Your weakness: Thinking you can do it all Your power color: Bronze Your power symbol: Half Moon Your power month: August

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

You Are a Pinky

You are fiercely independent, and possibly downright weird. A great communicator, you can get along with almost anyone. You are kind and sympathetic. You support all your friends - and love them for who they are. You get along well with: The Ring Finger Stay away from: The Thumb

What Finger Are You?

Your Personality is Somewhat Rare (ESFP)

Your personality type is playful, charming, open minded, and energetic. Only about 7% of all people have your personality, including 9% of all women and 5% of all men You are Extroverted, Sensing, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It's easy for you to forgive and forget. You are a very grounded, responsible, and realistic person. People may not want to hear the truth from you, but they're going to get it. You see yourself with pretty objective eyes. How you view yourself is almost exactly how other people view you. Your near future is calm, relaxing, and pretty much what you want. And it's something you've been anticipating for a while now. For you, falling in love is all about flirting and feeling playful. You couldn't fall in love with someone who took life too seriously.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

You Are Not Scary

Everyone loves you. Isn't that sweet?

How Scary Are You?

You Are A Fun Friend

You're the one who keeps your group laughing And you've always got an idea for something fun to do The party's not complete without you And you wouldn't miss it for the world

What Kind of Friend Are You?

Exotic Dancer Name Is...

Ice

Exotic Dancer Name Generator

Your Passion is Green

For you, sex is always fresh and new. You approach sex with innocence, even if you aren't as innocent as you seem! Gentle and slow, you aren't exactly known for your passion. But what you lack in smooth moves, you make up for in sweet charm.

What Color Is Your Passion?

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed. With respect to money, you spend whatever you have. You think good luck might come your way, but if it does you'll be so surprised you'll burst out laughing. The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort. You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked. When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you will search and search until you find your perfect match.

Who's The True You?

thats all folks:D
ciaoz

well todays a REALLY bad day
it totally sux la

something wrong with the camal today
then got NAFA
well at least i pass al 3

tomorrows gonna be a worst day
i haven even started revising my poa sia
stupid shit

anyway ive got a song in my head now
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"Where Did I Go Right?" by Hilary duff

I'm always too late
I see the train leaving
I'm always laughing
When it's not cool to smile

I'm always aiming
But somehow keep missing
So how did you get here
Something is wrong

Where did I go right
How did I get you
How come all this blue sky is around me
And you found me
Where did I go right
How did I get you
I don't know how I did
But somehow now I do

I'm always driving
Forget where I'm going
Should have turned left
But I was singing some song
And I, I am arriving
As everyone's leaving
But there you are waiting
Something is wrong

Where did I go right
How did I get you
How come all this blue sky is around me
And you found me
Where did I go right
How did I get you
I don't know how I did
But somehow now I do

Makes no sense to me
No it isn't clear
But somehow you're standing here
Something gets to me
It's that nothing is wrong

Where did I go right
How did I get you
How come all this blue sky is around me
And you found me
Where did I go right
How did I get you
I don't know how I did
But somehow now I do

i've got loads of thoughts and misery but no one to share with
lifes being mean to me lately
its been real tough
well everyone has their own paths to walk, we cant always rely on people.

well went out with cass and sam on saturday after the cca day
it was fun
i spent al of my allowence on that day
bought a new shirt and a comic

i didnt go to the concert on sunday
spent my day at my grans
my cousin treat my ice-kimo:D
super nice
it is a must eat <3

went to meet miss ng for prom just now
i think im going to help out for my cca points

jus reached home at 5 plus
im so beat now

ciaoz