exams are over but im still feeling the pressure. of what? of life i suppose.
as time goes by it closes in on our graduation. we all know we will never be able to hide in this hateful place we call school and we can never be always labelled as what we always hate, kids, students, whatsoever. we all have to go our different ways chasing our different dreams one day. and we must face the grueling pressure of work.
life never seems to let us have a break. after the pressure from school, comes the pressure to work.
well i need a break now. definatly. i need a space i can call my own, i need friends who will listen, who wont mind travelling al the way down when i feel like crying. i need people around me. i dont wanna be alone, when im alone i think, when i think mostly the thoughts are negative, i start doubting myself. i hate it.
well now im alone and im thinking bout life, thats the reason for this long time no see length post.
im lost. everyones thinking yeah sure everyone gets lost once in awhile. well im lost for most of my life. i dont know what i want or where i wanna go.

ah im stressed up all over again, its a vicious cycle that never seems to stop. this feelings sucks, now i cant even mix myself a drink, cause my mums forcing me to go run at what, 7.30 in the morning with her.

sometimes i wish i can just say goodbye to life. but dont worry, although i think no one will, i wont do anything stupid, im too cowardly to do that.