why isit everytime when i need someone, they're always not there. why isit not matter how much i treasure and trust someone, when i need them, they'll never be there. why isit that everytime im here for them, they're never there for me.
today i realise no matter how high i place someone in my priorities, i'll never be their first.
tonight i shall let self-pity take over, let me submerge myself in my own sadness.

this is not a post calling for pity or attention, nor isit to blame people. its just for me to let out all that i've kept inside for a long time.

Treasure those you have around you, cause you have more then i do.
For that i envy.