i feel as invisible as the wind.
no, worst at least people can feel the wind.

im clinging on whatever that i have left but i realise the more i tried to cling onto it the faster it silps away. maybe its time to learn to let go.

im such a horrible person
im far more selfish then you think i am
im far more shameless then you think i am
im far more then what you imagine me to be
i even scare myself sometimes
so dont assume you know who i am cause you dont know how mean i can be

i use to think how wonderful life is without me
but now i wish that it wasnt just a dream, but a reality

the two reasons im alive

one, im afraid of heights
two, i heard that if you jump off the building you have to jump again and again even
after you die

i wish im not so coward.

im so sick of people thinking they know me well
im sick of people thinking that everything i do and everything i say is crap and they just laugh over it.
im sick of people thinking that i only knows how to play and not study
cant you just listen not everything i say is crap

im not as strong as you think
even though i dont drop tears infront of you doesnt mean you didnt hurt me
even though i smile after what things you say doesnt mean i dont take it to heart

and maybe sometimes sorry is just a word to way to make people feel better

maybe james is right on two things
one, sometimes people just need someone to be there. theres no need for words, just sitting there can make a person feel not so lonely anymore

two, one day when all my problems are filled to the brim and i cant hold it any longer, it will burst and theres no way and no one to stop it

okay enuff ranting ciaoz