i have decided to be the perfect daughter, girl, friend from today onwards.
i'll be everything that most people want me to be
like soft-spoken well-mannered blah blah blah

i dowan to have people dislike me or hate me anymore
or anyone to give me that you-are-so-irritating look

even there's bound for people to dislike me but all i can do is this
i will try to change for everyone i know
and to prove to my family that i can be someone that they want me to be

i cant stop doing this to myself
i feel like cutting myself everyday
i know its wrong but i cant help it
but it's not that bad
at least there are no blood
hahss
cause i ham ji ma
dont dare cut to hard

and you know what
when i cut myself i hope my mummy would notice
but she didnt:]
is it so hard to get a little attention :D
silly of me for thinking that she will notice